the proposal

They say you should be careful what you wish for.

I remember when I was much younger, I had a cousin who was constantly in and out of the hospital for weeks. The doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. I felt so bad. I prayed to Hashem that she should get better, and I remember wishing I was the one who was sick instead of her.
A few days later the doctors realized that it was my cousin's ruptured appendix that was causing her pain. And sure enough, one week later, I had my own appendix removed for the same cause.

Maybe this isn't such a great post for MM.... I should be more careful about what I tell you ;)
And like I said, what I wish for.

Maybe because I'm so fed up already of singlehood, I prayed to Hashem that someone would propose already. And someone did. Just not the right person. At least, I don't think it's the right person.

Sometimes I doubt myself at these moments - what if this person is my beshert and I'm the one who's responsible for 'missing the boat'?

Maybe I should have worded my tefillah a little more thoughtfully that night...

Maybe I shouldn't have written this post...