Sunday, September 13, 2009

new year, new thoughts

Rosh Hashanah is in less than a week!

It's always an interesting time of year...

A happy time of year - we eat sweet things, we enjoy the company of our loved ones, we wish one another well...

It's as if we do these things in the hope that the happiness will continue throughout the year.

I always feel somewhat scared too. Intimidated by the immensity of what the holidays are really about. Scared that I don't measure up. That I haven't been good enough. That I haven't reached my full potential. I know I can always do more, do better. And yet, I know I don't. Almost always, I can feel my yetzer harah. Sometimes I know the exact moment where I should be doing something good, and I don't. For no good reason at all. I just don't. Call it laziness. Call it indifference. I know it's my yetzer harah. And choosing to overcome my yetzer harah is sometimes as hard as choosing to go to the gym when my bed's really really comfortable. Because once I become used to sleeping in on a Sunday, waking up early becomes that more difficult.

I went to a shiur tonight that gave me a little bit of inspiration, that I would like to share with you. When you're davening this Rosh Hashanah, when you're asking Hashem for a good, happy, healthy year - also ask that Hashem give you the strength to choose good over bad and to recognize the difference. Because in today's world, we could all use a little bit of exercise.

10 comments:

Dude with hat (aka BTS) said...

That's a really important thing to ask for and thanks for reminding I will try to ask.
Though I should say Hashem gives us this understanding of difference while we just do not accept it because it's uncomfortable for us to do so. And strength here is one of things that will help, but other side of it is willing to use the given strength and be motivated enough to overcome yourself and make right decision...

Gmar chatima ve chasima toivo!

Lvnsm27 said...

Things can be challenging sometimes, but we just need to make an effort. Each step brings us closer to our potential. May Hashem guide us to that good potential

Jessica said...

I always feel intimated too... I mean, God knows everything bad I've done. He knows all my intentions. He knows when I'm being insincere with my mitzvos. Even when I'm praying, He knows when I've spaced out (and I do a lot...). Rosh Hashana/ Yom Kippur are, by far, the scariest yom tovim, in my opinion.

Mikeinmidwood said...

I find the high holidays scary too, but yet we are supposed to be all happy when its rosh hashanah, I dont get it.

Anonymous said...

Liked your more Material posts about the shidduch or jewish dating world in ny more than your current articles. At least those were relevant articles that one could come here first to find out what's the current topic the single scene was discussing.

Especially for those singles living out of ny.

Altie said...

Yasher koach for the wake up call. I needed it.

Maidel said...

love the Anons.

More bad date stories to come when I have a really bad date ;)

Dude with hat (aka BTS) said...

@Maidel - i can help

lvnsm said...

Jessica, yes G-d knows everything, but this reflecting is for us, to pause and think of how to improve. And if we are sincere and just try, He'll forgive us

Anonymous said...

thank you for the inspiration even though rosh hashana is past us...
i will keep it in mind for yom hakippurim

gmar chatima tova